I Cry Because I am Heartbroken
I Cry Because I am Heartbroken. I am only one person and I can’t change the world but I wish I could. I wish I never had to cry because my children, friends, spouse, or loved ones are hurt, sad, or disappointed. I wish that I never had to cry again because I am heartbroken. I cried yesterday and may cry even more as I look around this world we live in.
Monday Morning
Yesterday morning was pretty much like any morning. Get the kids up, run around, pray with them, and get them out the door in time for school. The only difference was that I had an appointment in Santa Fe and had to run the baby to my friend’s house. Then, I stayed talking a little too long and had to rush to be on time for my 12:45 PM that was 1 1/2 hours away. I did make it on time but I wasn’t prepared for what I was about to find out.
As I arrived at the Cancer Center, I was really excited as it was my final Iron Infusion. In addition, I was really excited to be able to wear clothes that hadn’t fit in for over 2 years. That great feeling didn’t last more than 50 steps before I felt heart broken and started crying. Little did I know what I was about to encounter at the staircase of the Cancer Center.
The Staircase
As I was walking into the center, I saw this young couple coming down the staircase. At first glance I thought to myself what a nice looking couple. As the man came around the corner, I realized I knew him but I couldn’t figure out from where. As the lady he was with came down the stairs, I quickly realized who he was. At that moment my heart sank and I couldn’t believe who it was. Immediately, tears filled my eyes and my heart ached beyond belief.
I walked up to the lady and said, “Please tell me they didn’t find Breast Cancer”. She looked at me and said, “yes”. My voice cracked and I told her, “I am so sorry”. She looked at me and said, “It will be ok”. Isn’t that what I was supposed to tell her? She was trying to comfort me when I should be comforting her. I couldn’t believe that my friend and long time customer has Breast Cancer. I was devastated!
The Chemotherapy Room
As I entered the Chemotherapy Room, it took everything in me to not curl up on the recliner and cry like a baby. How could this amazing woman be facing Breast Cancer? Why her? Why everybody in this room? I actually felt guilty to be in that room all dressed up when those around me looked weak and fragile.
As I was waiting for my treatment, I found out something even more devastating. The last time I was there I noticed a young man who was very weak. He was so fragile that they had to wheel him out in a wheelchair after his chemo treatment. Later that evening he passed away. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.
My Life
Reality hit me once again. No matter what kind of week I had the week before, nothing compared to hearing that my friend and customer had Breast Cancer. Nothing I had faced the week before seemed to matter anymore. I quickly realized that there are bigger things one faces in life and when we put it all in perspective we just have to let some things go. We have to Trust God and know that He has a bigger plan for us. Life isn’t fair; people don’t treat us fairly. That’s ok. Let it go for your own well-being and pray for them.
I am learning to forgive even when I don’t want to forgive. I am learning to know that everything will be alright even if I can’t see what it is right now. In the grander scheme of things, a lot of the things we think are BIG really aren’t that big or bad. All of these experiences help us to become stronger and better people. We can’t empathize with others if we haven’t gone through troubles.
Reach Out
I quickly realized that Valentine’s Day is days away and there are many people around me that are lonely, broken-hearted, and feeling helpless. There are people that are cringing February 14th and just wishing it would vanish. Some people will be alone due to death, divorce, illness, and much more. See the truth is that it’s not all about us. It is about serving!
I challenge you to make a quick Valentine’s Day card and/or gift and give it to 5 people who are going through difficulty in their lives. Maybe the lady at the grocery who is a single mother. How about the post man that is working two jobs to put food on the table? How about that homeless man at the corner? Reach out and share God’s love with somebody.
Be the Difference
Is someone coming to mind right now? What are you waiting for? Run to your craft room and create a gift of love and bring hope to somebody who feels lonely.
I invite to accept to serve others on Valentine’s Day. Then, take pictures of your projects and send them to me. I will feature your project on my blog on February 14th. Lets see how many of us can reach out to those who are sad, lonely, or in need of a hug.
Will You Accept the Challenge?
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Hi Monica,
I just saw your challenge today. I did do a lot of Valentines but not just for the lonely I did them for so called normal people with everything and they said wow I cant believe I got a valentine. One lady said wow I never had a hand made card … that took some work and you must care. I never thought of a hand made card meaning that.
I too have had breast cancer and my husband has had it twice. He is doing good now. I look at things this way. I think when we are born we all get a path…on this path are things some good some not so good. so I called cancer a little pebble on my path and I will kick it aside for now. I think God gives us what we need and friends we need the rest is for us to decide. some things have a lot of heartache some we control and some we don’t and we have to learn to live with it.
Once I got cancer my sisters 3of them and my daughters tried to accept it for about 2 months and then choose not to speak to me so I guess that makes it easier I don’t know but on my end its hard not knowing why I didn’t ask for cancer and now I have no family. my son always stayed close…a lot of my so called good friends did the same but the true ones are still friends. one daughter has now decided I’m not dying just yet. so she is back talking. All I can think of is everyone has to deal with it in their own way weather I think its right or not,. All I know is God has never left my side.
I told the Dr. this wont kill me Im not ready and if its today then I’m ready… he said don’t talk like that and I said we are all going to die are you ready… he didn’t answer me. I will pray for you and your friend as I do all others.
I am doing very well now and I am also off all my medications I was taking so that is a bonus as well which makes me feel much better. so all the best to you all. Carolyn
Dear Monica,
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and wonderful challenge with your Stampin’ Up! Family. My dear husband lost his second battle with cancer six years ago. My family is dealing with another member with cancer currently and I have four other friends going through it as well. It seems to be everywhere. I know that God does have a plan and we need to trust in that and find our strength in him. When we are at our lowest He is there to be what we need, if we but ask. I’m busy making cards for all of the people in my life who need an extra lift on Valentine’s Day. Thank you for reminding us to reach out beyond ourselves. I’ll keep you, your friend and your family’s in my prayers. God Bless, Carol
Dear Monica,
Thank you for sharing your feelings with us. I will certainly take these thoughts and share them with my friends and family today!
Judy
Thank you, Monica, for reminding each of us how blessed we are and for challenging us to share by blessing others with a hand made from the heart card!
Monica this is a very touching post and it brings me back to time when my mom suffered through her leukemia and it does really change your life when you go there. It makes you realize how precious your life really is and how bad it really isn’t so I accept your challenge actually was already doing this so it’s great that I’ll be able to participate thank you for what you do.
Monica, my heart goes out to you because of your sympathetic leanings and to your dear friend and customer as she fights and wins this battle. My husband is fighting and winning in this, as well. At least we are denying anything unlike whole, complete and perfect health for him while affirming that God is all there is. And God is perfect. Diet and exercise, prayer and affirmation also play a huge part in his recovery of his disease. Dr. Holmes stated “change your thinking, change your life. I firmly believe is was correct. In fact, we count on that. We can all help each other by affirming and praying. I will include you and your friend in my constant prayer. Be well and comforted. You are not alone.
Your post, while so sad, lifted me up this morning. I’m going to do as you suggest, send a card to those I know are hurting or going through a difficult time.
Look Back: Thank Him
Look Forward: Trust Him
Look Around: Serve Him
Look Up: He’s all I need
I’m so sorry that your friend is facing cancer. It’s so hard to understand why these things happen to people who do not deserve it. I’m still struggling with losing my Dad last summer of cancer. I know he’s in Heaven and I will see him again one day but I miss him so much. I am thankful that we have a Heavenly Father that never fails us. Even when things in this life seem to go wrong, we are never alone. I am working on getting Valentine’s out to a few people who I know are hurting. I think your challenge is a wonderful idea.
Rest in the arms of Jesus.
Sandi
My Dear friend, I know how you feel, I have lost 3 good husbands and a brother with cancer, I myself a at 85 am Cancer surviver. (So lightening never strikes twice? No!!!
Yesterday I nursed one of my 8 great granchildren, he was born 6 months too early he was 2lbs and now 4 lbs, he can see and he is not deaf, we now have to wait and see, and pray everything else will be alright with him. He has a lovely smile.
With all the trouble in the world, why do not the people that govern us are such liars and corrupt. Hopefully here, Our New Prime Minister a Christian, can make a difference. The money wasted would be better used on health, The money sent overseas, is not being used as intended, just more corrupt polititians.
I f you have read this. Do take care of yourself, you seem to lead such a busy life. God Bless you Margaret from Australia.